sunshine, lollipop and rainbows

something

pavida — Wed, 26 Oct 2011 11:24:41 +0000

Something is missing. I don’t know what it is.
I hope we’ll find it soon.

I’ll never for…

pavida — Fri, 21 Oct 2011 00:15:52 +0000

I’ll never forget this..
“you know what, I don’t want to talk to you right now”

I’ve realised a lot today, and things are about to change

pavida — Sat, 15 Oct 2011 05:14:37 +0000

I wish I could squeeze my tiny self into that world of yours. I wish there was some space for me to stand.

I love you. I really do.

what happened?

pavida — Wed, 12 Oct 2011 11:09:58 +0000

How long has it been since I ….

open a blank page and pure down my thoughts into writings.. .

pick up a paint and paint colors into a blank canvas

pick up a pen and scribble … scribble.. scribble

go for a walk in a park and sit down on a bench and just contemplate on random thought

skype an old friend

take random pictures

walk without needing to be somewhere

…..

What happened to 2010 and half of 2011….

what the fuck happened to me? why do i feel so bloody useless

where did all my inspirations go..

what the fuck am i doing?

pavida — Thu, 24 Jun 2010 00:47:13 +0000

deep down.. u know hat things are about to change..

but you have to suppress that feelin’ and move on

because no matter how hard you try, things will change anyway..

you just have to accept it eventually and learn to live with it aye?

………………

“saying I like you doesn’t sum up the feeling I have for you, so the only word above that I guess is I love you. And if that’s not what you want to hear then well, I’m falling in love with you.”

took my breath away just like that.

เหนื่อย

pavida — Tue, 15 Jun 2010 12:07:47 +0000

เครียดได้อีกป่ะ enough of this shit

Everything

pavida — Sun, 13 Jun 2010 04:22:45 +0000

He: I can’t believe i’m falling for this girl.. like head over heels

She: :’)

…

I hope this time will be different.

When is enough ever enough?

pavida — Mon, 07 Jun 2010 14:22:22 +0000

I don’t know what I’m doing here. The path is so vague and I’m stepping into the unknown.

It always started with the same words, the same smile, the same looks in their eyes.

So shouldn’t that be enough? What more can I ask for?

I guess I just feel so insecure about all this.

I guess I’m just scared that one day, it ‘ll turn upside down. And I’m not sure if I’m ready for another ‘disappointment.’

a letter to myself.

pavida — Sun, 09 May 2010 12:49:00 +0000

What the fuck do you think you are doing?

This is not right. You think what you’re doing is fun… but every action has its own consequence.

so STOP it.. before things get more complicated.. QUIT it..

FOCUS! .. you cannot afford to deal with any mess right now…

…

So far…2010

pavida — Mon, 12 Apr 2010 08:06:49 +0000

So far…. what I have gained for my self-actualization is quite interesting actually.

I used to think that I rely on all these people I’ve came across. I used to be scare that if I’m not on their good sides, then my life would be miserable.

Today.. it’s different. I’ve learnt that the person who I think is the most reliable is the one who hurts you the most. So, I’ve came up with this second strategy for my own sake, so I wouldn’t stumble when expectations turn against me.

-Why do I have to rely on any particular person? I need to be strong and let them think they are relying on me- My life doesn’t depend on anyone… and I cannot possibly please every single being.

People will hurt you.. indirectly and directly. Even people you love may hurt you… so cut all the crap and save yourself.

Someone told to me a couple of days ago, “Kick asses and be the best.” . … Thank you… I will try my best.